As detailed in a recent journal entry, my ex Eric has been on my mind for a while now. I know not why. Don't you hate it when that happens?

-- Erica (erica@ericajackson.com), June 08, 2000

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Well, i'm not really sure if i'm doing this correctly, i've never contributed before. As for "do i hate it when that happens" well, i think it happens to everyone. I didn't realize this until recently. Read on. I came out when I was 19, dating only women, gabba gabba. I've been in a handful of longish relationship with women, most were somewhat fufulling. Two monthes ago, I ran into the last guy I ever dated. When I figured out I was a lesbian, I told him and at the same time he told me he thought he was gay too. We laughed and shared our stories of same sex lust. We lost touched and it turned out he works here in NYC mere blocks away from where I live. It was a fun meeting, he looked great he told me I smelled great. We did happy hour and in a drunken state realized that even though we believe we are both gay, there is still a bizarre attraction that we have for each other. I've been analyzing this, constantly. Talked to some friends about it... Apparently it's natural. I mean, I can't contemplate having sexual relations with this guy... but there's a closeness there that I don't have with my girlfriend. Of course a drunken state will heighten any closeness. So we still hang out, and we talk about the attraction... but it's just that an attraction. He had me doubting myself for awhile and he was doubting himself as well. But now he dates a very close friend of my girlfriends and we double date and we are both happy for each other. And it's kinda of fun knowing that there's a certain danger when we get together alone. Anyhoo. I hope this helps. blargh. j

-- jes s. (munkerj@aol.com), June 13, 2000.

i never stop loving my ex's .. i just love them in a diff. way, but they are always in my heart.

peace. www.latitude11.com

-- courtney (courtney@latitude11.com), June 19, 2000.

I'm still in love with him and I dumb-assedly think that meeting him one last time before I move will help me achieve closure. *sigh* I'll let ya'll know how it goes... if I survive the heartache. ;)

-- Sandra (santrev7@prodigy.net), June 24, 2000.

I haven't seen my es in almost 10 years. We dated when I was 13 and now at 23 I still think about him. I have been trying to find him, Alex Camano, if you read this get a hold of me. I am in California. Te amo.

-- Abigail Rodriguez (Thompson) (rodriguez_abigail@yahoo.com), July 02, 2002.