i haven't rambled in a few days. i hope this is okay :x

first of all - i can't believe Josh Clayton-Felt died. have you guys heard of him? it seems like you would like him. many of you at least. He was such a wonderful person. he just beamed with energy. I was fortunate enough to become familiar with him about 3 years ago - yes, he toured with Tori. He was so sweet. I've been told he found out in December that he had cancer, and he passed away yesterday....Where-ever he is, i hope hes painting his trees green :x

secondly - has anyone seen the film Boys Don't Cry? I finally got around to seeing it last night. Everyone i know had seen it, and i had heard so much. It didn't really impact me last night. But i kept dreaming about it, and its left this ghost like impact on me that i can't shake, and its very creepy :x it was a really sad film though. and reality.

third - canters is a good place to have talks about the past and the future. especially over really hot french fries.

fourth - 8 days until the san francisco show!! CountCrow1: lol! very :) still 8... that's too long!! Feeling Tornados: nowwww CountCrow1: i want it to be NOW! i'm going to be so unproductive all week. CountCrow1: you just cant wait to hang out with those bums, huh? :)- i love this running joke :p as much as i love the running hardcore in the CC folder :p

fifth - I had a joe90 dream! it was before my eerie boys don't cry dream because i slept like ALL day so i can't remember as much of it as i'd like. I just know that only craig and chris were around - were the rest of you busy or something? It was a long dream from what i can recall too. and it was aqua. A bright blue aqua. i wonder if that color has any symbolism? hrm.

sixth - i have to go pick up the carpool of 3rd and 4th graders right now. i hope they're in the mood for the 'who can be quiet the longest' game. they get really into it sometimes

seventh - jenn* , my friend from spain called this afternoon and i slept through it :[

eighth - if you read this thank you. hahahaha. i just want squishy emails man! i hope its okay that i posted :x it has joe90 content, didn't you see it?

ninth - i need to make some buttons! i was supposed to yesterday but my friends computer crashed. :x

tenth - i love you guys :]

love, erin :p

-- erin*89 (feelingtornados@aol.com), January 21, 2000

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i don't care what anyone says -- i think we should all give any and all accumulated points of any kind to Princess Amanda's mom (would that make her mom the queen?) for suffering the bite of frost in conjunction with a show. i hope to hell the NJ and Pittsburgh shows are warmer -- if not, i do believe someone (i won't mention names, but there are four of them) should see to it that there is adequate cab/heater service available :) (i LOVE the idea that someone got a cab for folks to wait around in at the show last night. that simply rocks.) last note on posting, and i'm shutting up because i'm sick of listening to myself and thinking about this and spending more time on board stuff than site stuff :) please -- in no way, shape, or form were any of the messages here intended to make anyone feel bad or make them afraid to hit "submit". okay? the only thing i ask is that we don't go stark raving nuts, and to remember that there are many other people that visit the site and read the board. this format seems to be working much better, and most everyone is happy with it. case closed. let's have fun now, k? it's all good. (and i never say that. when did i turn into a Ricki Lake talk show guest?) i'm listening to culture club while updating the site tonight. laugh all you want...the song "victims" still reduces me to tears. "pull the strings of emotion
take a ride into unknown pleasure
feel like a child on a dark night
wishing there was some kind of heaven..." aimee.*

-- aimee.* (satylite2s@aol.com), January 21, 2000.

dear god, that was a formatting nightmare. sorry bout that, kids.

on a brighter note, i just found out it's possible to use HTML tags in posts. if that means anything to you, go ahead and do it :)

uhm...but you'll need to insert paragraph break tags if you're gonna use HTML unless you want what happened up there to me to happen to you.

if you understand any of that, you're just as big a geek as i apparently am!

-- aimee.* (satylite2s@aol.com), January 21, 2000.

AJ, i'm glad you mentioned the order of the posts thing, i meant to say something earlier.

for some reason, my posts show up as the first responses. i think it has something to do with me being the board administrator. it screwed me up at first too, and i can't change it!

sorry for the confusion :)

-- aimee.* (satylite2s@aol.com), January 22, 2000.

erin's post reminded me that i never told you guys about the joe 90 dream i had the other night. i had mentioned it to jill in an email. thanks a whole bunch for reminding me to post about it, jill. i'm taking away 12 hard core points for that!!

anyway, here are the bits and pieces i remember about the dream...there was a frozen surfboard. it was a surfboard that was covered in ice, and adam, gary, chris, and craig were carrying it around above their heads. and then i was in a mall with my grandmother and i was looking thru her bag and i found sparkle-y bobbypins (i think that's because i had them in my hair that day) and adam was there and he said they were his. and we got in this argument about who's bobbypins they really were. and then i was with aimee, near her car and we were laughing so hard about something. and then there was a new joe 90 cd released, except it said "JOE 50" and i was the only one that noticed it was wrong.

weird.

i am listening to "dream this" right now. how many points? HUH HUH?!

erin, do you have a portable stereo? i think you should bring it to the show so when you sit outside with the bums you can sing along to the cd. in case you can't hear the show. :)

-- jenn* (jennmcm@aol.com), January 21, 2000.

That reminded me of something... My mom called the doctor and it's been confirmed that she has frost bite from yesterday! All she can do is complain about how terrible the concert was and it's GETTING ON MY NERVES! Okay, I'm done venting now. When we were waiting outside, a bum was trying to sell us a blanket to stay warm, LOL! You had to be there, it was a very cool experience and I'd do it 100 more times, even if my mom thinks it wasn't fun. Anyhoo, getting my pics developed tomorrow, can't wait, hope they came out =) Bye bye, hope you get a squishy feeling erin! -AJ

-- Amanda Joy (hello@ameritech.net), January 21, 2000.

amanda, i love your "frostbite?! what frostbite?! this is CC we're talking about!" attitude! lol**** poor mum :(

i went to the mall tonite. bought another vertical horizon CD. sue is seeing the push stars right about now. they rule! yeah push stars!

everyone needs to stop asking of if they get joe90 hardcore points for just BREATHING the word "joe90"....everyday joe90 occurences dont count! we cant be giving out hardcore points to every bum who listens to the album (not that its a bad thing that bums might listen. its record sales, right?! in the end, record sales is all that really matters, right?! so bums are ok! they just need to be special joe90-stalking bums in order to get hardcore points! damnit!)

thats my hardcore points schpeel for the night. lol*

i like this board a lot :)

-- ~Jill (beezer6801@aol.com), January 21, 2000.

Because Jill mentioned it, and assuming that maybe someone is interested...all I have to say about The Pushstars is that they sure as hell aren't Joe 90. The best part of the show was that they played Mrs. Potter on the taped music between sets. And I heard Einstein on the ride home. And it was cool hanging out with my friends. I felt about a million years old, and the show was very short (it's 11:40 and I'm already home from Boston). But they did play my favorite, Moving Target. I guess it was ok, but I can't wait for February to see a real band :)

Sue

-- sue (suebdobee@aol.com), January 21, 2000.

LOL! I'll pass the message on to my mom that she gets extra points, I'm sure she'll be amused =) You know what I find interesting? I always claim the Crows as my favorite band, but when it comes down to it, I was a lot more excited to see and meet Joe 90. Maybe it's cuz the Crows are like old guys compared to me, lol. If you haven't figured it out by now, I'm usually really bored when I post here, but I'm sure you people don't mind =) I like this board better, but what happened in this thread? The first time I replied I didn't see aimees posts.. strange. Oh well, bye bye -AJ

P.S. did I mention I'm getting my film developed tomorrow? I think I did, but I'm very happy about this, so I had to say it again =) Hope they come out okay!

-- Amanda Joy (hello@ameritech.net), January 22, 2000.

i believe aimee.* said this thing will take html, so if this looks funny. sorry. i'm trying.

first of all - this whole death of josh clayton has really shook me up way more than i expected. i mean - i wasn't really a fan. i enjoyed his performance, and he was very very nice and i think he was a great musician - but i never saw him after those two shows. you know? but i'm not used to death. no one that i have really cared about has died around me. i've been lucky. either that or i always shut it up. and this is really really making me sad. i've actually sat her and cried. i feel like - i don't know - to be alive, something i take for granted - i have such a little life that i don't even want, and he was out there making something of himself - why isnt he the one sitting here alive now? he was SO YOUNG. he was 33 i think. that is SO INCREDIBLY YOUNG.

i can't even fathom..i don't know. i don't know what i'm thinking. i just know that for once in my life i feel very, very fortunate to be alive. and i don't know why i'm freaked out. maybe its because he was so young. maybe it was a reality check. i dont know. i'm not a religious person. so i lit a candle, and i listened to boys for pele because thats what he reminds me of - marianne. 'don't you love the girls ladies babies - old bags who say she was so pretty '

i dunno. this is an adorable photo of him - and this one is josh and i in 1996. i look so random. i'm like 'hi i'm 17!' - but he was just adorable. i don't know what i was trying to say with that post. but. i dunno. i keep having little spats of crying :x its bizarre.

sigh. okay enough of that. now i'm going to respond to all these lovely posts that give me e-mails!

to princess amanda - wow frostbite? thats scary. hahaha. but i have to agree on the massive hardcore points she gets for that :D I feel lucky that california is going to be nice and warm (well, in comparison) for sitting out there. heh. although san fran is windy and can be chilly! i need to clean my coat. hmm..

i'm sorry the pushstars were not very good sue :[ but it sounds like you had fun anyways!!

jenn* - i am NOT going to take a portable stereo - although maybe i should take my cd player. hahahahaha. if i can't hear anything from the inside then i am so not going to sit out with the bums. hahaha. i'll have to give myself a concert i guess..hmmm. :p also jenn - thank you. you know. smoosh. you made me feel a bit better. blueeee

aimee - your posts get in front of everyone elses because you are the supreme divine one - on the board at least.

i'm sounding really stupid arent i? hahaha

kroq is having a flashback weekend - all songs from the 80s. i dunno. kroq 80s songs i rarely know! one of the few things that makes me feel young.

got a peanut butter hand - but honey do drop in at that dew drop inn.

k um. 7 days wheeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeee

this is a random post, forgive me.

smooshes. erin

-- erin*89 (feelingtornados@aol.com), January 22, 2000.