I am sorry.

I just wanted to write this note to say I am sorry about my recent postings on this site. I was not very nice to the Afflecks, and I do regret it. They really are my favorite acting brothers, and they surely are cooler than the Stallones. Anyway, my therapist says I may have been acting out against Case and Ben because I am jealous of their fame and success. I have "fixated" on them because they are so likeable and popular. Sometimes I wish I was popular, and that people liked me- girls and boys- and not just in a sexual way. I haven't had sex yet with anyone, and I am 28!!!! Do you think I am a loser? I am sorry Casey, if you are reading this. I do think you are cute and I wish we were friends, but Dr. Sinclair says I am living in a fantasy world and that my thoughts are disjointed and without a grip in reality. I wish we could go out and drink together and party and make fun of people who weren't as cool as us or had disabilities or something. You have truly been an inspiration and I want so much to meet you. I recently sent in an audition tape for that MTV show Fanatic, you know when regular people can go and meet better people like movie stars. I have been practicing all morning what I would wear and say, but I would probably just hug you and cry all the time. I LOVE YOU CASEY!!!!! Please write back, I don't see why you won't even acknowledge my presence. You might be in the movies, but how can you just brush aside people who obviously care for you so much. Casey, I WON"T BE IGNORED. You better write me back or somethjing bad will happen to me. I can't take this anymore, I really need you in my life. I am your biggest fan, if you ever came to South Dakota i would give you the shirt of my back and a place to sleep in my house. I even got that stupid tattoo you and your brother have on your backs. I love you. I want to be your friend. Plezse call me or at least tell me why you dont write back. I dont want to be angry at you anymore casey, i just want to love you. bye-dee

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